last week, i was went back to my lovely sweet home.
i miss my mummy,
i miss my both brother,
i miss menglembu,
i miss nice food at ipoh.
but only 2 days...
yah, but nevermind lah,
2 days, better than don't have.
i was so touch when i at home.
eventhough i haven reach home,
my lovely brother adi did something that i felt touch.
he was waiting me at the bus stop there
waiting to help me carry my things
waiting to take me home.
maybe others feel nothing for this
but for me is different.
mummy was on leave on last saturday
coz she said she long time never shopping with me
so last saturday
she was brought me and my brother went out shopping and eat nice food
she know that i miss seafood so she brought to eat seafood
she know that i wish to buy some books to read so brought me to shopping
i was sooooo touch
really don't know how to express my feeling
yesterday i was took my result adi
happy? sad? don't know
i really don't know...
my GPA was 3.3
many people was less than this
but also have a lot people higher than me.
however, sem 1 than time i was 3.5
so.... i also don't know how...
but i very glad that i get all my procedure sign
i really glad that i have a good CI at ORKID ward
thanks you CI
just now meeting with my group girls
talking about assigment
a lot of assigment is coming
and all need to be done before we all on block
but i wish to go back on next saturday
i know i cannot be self fish
but like what she said
if you never treat yourself good
no body will pity you
i'm so sorry my dear group girl...
realize something
guys,
is not important for me anymore
think of them also feel tired
don't know why will be like that...
but i do admit
i miss HIM
i miss him a lot
last saturday i saw him at pasar malam
but he just act like dosen see me
just walk off like that
but i never angry
coz he is special for me
coz i'm the one who reject him
coz i'm the one who make him sad....
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
my best friend~~
yesterday, two of my friends fight with each other.
i just quiet myself,
coz both of them are very important to me.
i don't want just because i help either one of them,
then the other will angry.
jocelyn chai,
the people who understand me,
the people who make me can face to myself,
make me face to the second loo chi hwa.
she will always understand me the other way of thinking
this thinking was kept inside my heart for 17 years
because i am chinese educated
i train to be respect and patient since i was young
but her
make my brave enough to face myself,
face the other site of loo.
angel tan,
the people who take care
and love me the most in this college.
she will take me to enjoy nice food
borrow nice story books for me
and share every thing with me
i touch and happy
coz in my 17 years life
i don't have sister or even a friend treat me like so good
and she is not onlybmy friend
but is my sister
but two of them fight
and cannot tolerate each other
last night i cannot slept
this morning i cannot concentrate my work
i just thinking thinking and thinking how to help them
but i just can doing nothing
and be quiet
hope that
they will be friend again
and i believe that
if you treat others good,
no matter they all appreciate or not
the GOD will know.
yaup,
thank you
thank you help me when i have problem
thank you heard me when i need help
really,
thanks.
i just quiet myself,
coz both of them are very important to me.
i don't want just because i help either one of them,
then the other will angry.
jocelyn chai,
the people who understand me,
the people who make me can face to myself,
make me face to the second loo chi hwa.
she will always understand me the other way of thinking
this thinking was kept inside my heart for 17 years
because i am chinese educated
i train to be respect and patient since i was young
but her
make my brave enough to face myself,
face the other site of loo.
angel tan,
the people who take care
and love me the most in this college.
she will take me to enjoy nice food
borrow nice story books for me
and share every thing with me
i touch and happy
coz in my 17 years life
i don't have sister or even a friend treat me like so good
and she is not onlybmy friend
but is my sister
but two of them fight
and cannot tolerate each other
last night i cannot slept
this morning i cannot concentrate my work
i just thinking thinking and thinking how to help them
but i just can doing nothing
and be quiet
hope that
they will be friend again
and i believe that
if you treat others good,
no matter they all appreciate or not
the GOD will know.
yaup,
thank you
thank you help me when i have problem
thank you heard me when i need help
really,
thanks.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
dream...
have a lot of things need to say
but don't know how to start.
recently a friend ask a question like this:
will you regret for this three yeras?
some of my friend said that,
they will never regret for it.
some of them said that,
joining this cause because had no chooice.
for me,
i don't know.
yaup,
my dream is to be a nurse when i was 13 years old.
friends who know me,
they will know that why i wanted to join nursing when i was 13.
i feel like want to take good care of them,
give love to them,
and be patient to them.
no matter how fussy they are,
how unreasonable they are,
i still feel like,
i am helping them.
after one year at here,
i realize a lot.
nursing field
is not that easy as you think.
it may look like angel for patient
it may look like friendly for others
only when you step into this field
you will only know how is it life
maybe this call social life.
but for me
being a nurse is cannot like this.
anything happen
just judge without understanding
yes,
i admit that i'm regret
because it out of my imagination
that's why i told my friend that
dream is not equal to future.
BUT I'LL NEVER GIVE UP!!
COZ BEING A NURSE WILL BE PART OF MY LIFE
MY FUTURE WILL BE WEARING WHITE UNIFORM FOR MY WHOLE LIFE
it just
before become a staff nurse
you really need to sacrefice a lot.
i know that this 3 years journey is a very hard time for me
but...
i will continue to fight for it!!!
but don't know how to start.
recently a friend ask a question like this:
will you regret for this three yeras?
some of my friend said that,
they will never regret for it.
some of them said that,
joining this cause because had no chooice.
for me,
i don't know.
yaup,
my dream is to be a nurse when i was 13 years old.
friends who know me,
they will know that why i wanted to join nursing when i was 13.
i feel like want to take good care of them,
give love to them,
and be patient to them.
no matter how fussy they are,
how unreasonable they are,
i still feel like,
i am helping them.
after one year at here,
i realize a lot.
nursing field
is not that easy as you think.
it may look like angel for patient
it may look like friendly for others
only when you step into this field
you will only know how is it life
maybe this call social life.
but for me
being a nurse is cannot like this.
anything happen
just judge without understanding
yes,
i admit that i'm regret
because it out of my imagination
that's why i told my friend that
dream is not equal to future.
BUT I'LL NEVER GIVE UP!!
COZ BEING A NURSE WILL BE PART OF MY LIFE
MY FUTURE WILL BE WEARING WHITE UNIFORM FOR MY WHOLE LIFE
it just
before become a staff nurse
you really need to sacrefice a lot.
i know that this 3 years journey is a very hard time for me
but...
i will continue to fight for it!!!
Friday, July 17, 2009
遗弃
没错，复杂的心，就是现在的我.
我只想说，
你让我，有点失望。
我不知道为何那天的对话会被中断，
也不明白为何你就像断了线的风筝，
让我不知你的去向。
也许我想得太多了吧？
只因我们对彼此的认识，
就只有那么一丁点。
在生气自己让你了解我太多了吗？
还是在担心你的突然失踪？
真的好想好想知道，
到底，
这是什么一回事...
我并不喜欢这样，
让我有一种被遗弃的感觉。
我只想说，
你让我，有点失望。
我不知道为何那天的对话会被中断，
也不明白为何你就像断了线的风筝，
让我不知你的去向。
也许我想得太多了吧？
只因我们对彼此的认识，
就只有那么一丁点。
在生气自己让你了解我太多了吗？
还是在担心你的突然失踪？
真的好想好想知道，
到底，
这是什么一回事...
我并不喜欢这样，
让我有一种被遗弃的感觉。
Saturday, July 11, 2009
friend b'day but was my bad day...
yesterday was not my day...
i was bad luck for the one whole day...
but still need to say to her:
JOCELYN CHAI
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! (coz yesterday was her birthday)
yaup,
back to my story...
early in the morning needed to wake up early
coz had appoitment with Doctor Chu,
see him to treat my lips.
as usual, WAIT
wait was okay for me....
the thing that i cannot accept is,
doctor said i need start to stop take SPICY FOOD
and also the food that will make my lips sensitive one,
like AJINAMOTO...
sad... coz food without spicy
i will die...
but for my lips,
haiz.... just tahan for 2 weeks lah... what to do?
after that,
the medicine that doctor gave me is stronger than before adi....
the cream that he gave me to apply is fuccidin..
it make me feel bitter to all the food while i eating
or even drinking...
sad..
the person who LOVE to eat,
now taste what food also bitter....
then,
need to write EXPLAINATION LETTER to tutor
coz i never get approve and sign from tutor...
but the thing is,
i was refere to specialist doctor
and the appoitment date was on morning but i was noon shiff...
i really don't know that need to get sign from tutor...
but she just don't want to listen...
pitty...
whatever food i ate already tastless...
somemore now need to write letter....
i know it is not a big deal,
write a piece of letter only mah...
but it do make me feel so bad
coz feel like i have discipline promblem...
next,
my SC was fly away....
i thought i was lucky
coz my team got SC
but the patient was went to AOR leave at 4pm
so...
my procedure just fly away in front of me~~~
after then,
my white colour uniform was kenal some stain...
at the back of mytrouser...
although that time was washed off a bit
but just feel uncomfortable loh...
haiz... my bad day.
but something make me felt a bit lucky on yesterday
was saw him at cafeteria.
he was just sititng oppisite from my place,
make me so nervous ^-^
i was bad luck for the one whole day...
but still need to say to her:
JOCELYN CHAI
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! (coz yesterday was her birthday)
yaup,
back to my story...
early in the morning needed to wake up early
coz had appoitment with Doctor Chu,
see him to treat my lips.
as usual, WAIT
wait was okay for me....
the thing that i cannot accept is,
doctor said i need start to stop take SPICY FOOD
and also the food that will make my lips sensitive one,
like AJINAMOTO...
sad... coz food without spicy
i will die...
but for my lips,
haiz.... just tahan for 2 weeks lah... what to do?
after that,
the medicine that doctor gave me is stronger than before adi....
the cream that he gave me to apply is fuccidin..
it make me feel bitter to all the food while i eating
or even drinking...
sad..
the person who LOVE to eat,
now taste what food also bitter....
then,
need to write EXPLAINATION LETTER to tutor
coz i never get approve and sign from tutor...
but the thing is,
i was refere to specialist doctor
and the appoitment date was on morning but i was noon shiff...
i really don't know that need to get sign from tutor...
but she just don't want to listen...
pitty...
whatever food i ate already tastless...
somemore now need to write letter....
i know it is not a big deal,
write a piece of letter only mah...
but it do make me feel so bad
coz feel like i have discipline promblem...
next,
my SC was fly away....
i thought i was lucky
coz my team got SC
but the patient was went to AOR leave at 4pm
so...
my procedure just fly away in front of me~~~
after then,
my white colour uniform was kenal some stain...
at the back of mytrouser...
although that time was washed off a bit
but just feel uncomfortable loh...
haiz... my bad day.
but something make me felt a bit lucky on yesterday
was saw him at cafeteria.
he was just sititng oppisite from my place,
make me so nervous ^-^
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
off day
today is my off day...
long time never blogging adi...
haiz... coz busy in working
and also facebook-ing
tomorroe will serving medication with CI,
quite "jing zhang"....
coz i need to know all the medication name,
indication of the medicine,
and also have any site effect...
but unfortunately
i'm not the person who LOVE to memorize things....
don't know which way will CI choose for me to die....
in the ward,
i had a lot of chance to give injection.
until now,
i already gave 3 times.
i think,
i am more confident in giving injection adi... (although i haven get even 1 sign)
raning now...
same with my mood.
not sad but moody.
maybe off day too boring for me...
maybe keep on checking the indication of the medicine...
or maybe thinking for someone...
don't know,
have no answer....
last night was received his sms.
feel..... shock.
never think that he will sms me.
but it just a forward message,
am i think too much?
coz he just send me one and only one forward message,
but no concern...
ya...
we are different now,
i know...
today know more about a friend through msn-ing.
and i was broke my priciple
by gave him know more about me...
abnormal, i know...
but i trust him...
maybe is the time for me to break down my "wall"
and not always think that
friend will always betray me...
ya,
maybe i should do it.
long time never blogging adi...
haiz... coz busy in working
and also facebook-ing
tomorroe will serving medication with CI,
quite "jing zhang"....
coz i need to know all the medication name,
indication of the medicine,
and also have any site effect...
but unfortunately
i'm not the person who LOVE to memorize things....
don't know which way will CI choose for me to die....
in the ward,
i had a lot of chance to give injection.
until now,
i already gave 3 times.
i think,
i am more confident in giving injection adi... (although i haven get even 1 sign)
raning now...
same with my mood.
not sad but moody.
maybe off day too boring for me...
maybe keep on checking the indication of the medicine...
or maybe thinking for someone...
don't know,
have no answer....
last night was received his sms.
feel..... shock.
never think that he will sms me.
but it just a forward message,
am i think too much?
coz he just send me one and only one forward message,
but no concern...
ya...
we are different now,
i know...
today know more about a friend through msn-ing.
and i was broke my priciple
by gave him know more about me...
abnormal, i know...
but i trust him...
maybe is the time for me to break down my "wall"
and not always think that
friend will always betray me...
ya,
maybe i should do it.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
再见，我的3个他
一个月内，我失去了三个对我重要的人。
一个我爱的他，
一个爱我的他，
一个我最相信的他。
他，使我冷静的脑袋不再冷静。
他对他自己的缺点介意，
而我却完全能接受。
我对自己没有信心，
而他的鼓励却让我重拾信心。
他对我来说，
意义非凡。
如今的我们，
因为我的冲动，
变成普通到不能再普通的朋友...
他，完全对我包容忍耐。
重来不需要任何表示，
他完全明白我的感受。
可是他的花心与胆小，
让我一再犹豫。
如今的我们，
挽回不了当年的感情，
也继续不了以后的友谊。
他，是我最相信的朋友。
不管是什么理由让我难过，
不管以前发生任何事件，
我都相信他。
觉得与他的友谊，
是真与实在。
一个误会，
让我们多年的友谊画上了问号。
如今的我们，
不再有任何联系。
一个月内，
因为我的冲动，
因为我的无奈，
因为我的误解，
我失去了这三个对我重要的人。
你，
陪我成长，
随我难过，
听我埋怨，
伴我寂寞...
如今，
一切的一切，
不再属于我。
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳还是会绕
没有理由 我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才 明白
一个我爱的他，
一个爱我的他，
一个我最相信的他。
他，使我冷静的脑袋不再冷静。
他对他自己的缺点介意，
而我却完全能接受。
我对自己没有信心，
而他的鼓励却让我重拾信心。
他对我来说，
意义非凡。
如今的我们，
因为我的冲动，
变成普通到不能再普通的朋友...
他，完全对我包容忍耐。
重来不需要任何表示，
他完全明白我的感受。
可是他的花心与胆小，
让我一再犹豫。
如今的我们，
挽回不了当年的感情，
也继续不了以后的友谊。
他，是我最相信的朋友。
不管是什么理由让我难过，
不管以前发生任何事件，
我都相信他。
觉得与他的友谊，
是真与实在。
一个误会，
让我们多年的友谊画上了问号。
如今的我们，
不再有任何联系。
一个月内，
因为我的冲动，
因为我的无奈，
因为我的误解，
我失去了这三个对我重要的人。
你，
陪我成长，
随我难过，
听我埋怨，
伴我寂寞...
如今，
一切的一切，
不再属于我。
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球 太阳还是会绕
没有理由 我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才 明白
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