day out with angel

yesterday went out with angel,
and she told me that I'm pretty!
haha... really?
you know,
this is first time she said such to me
make me happy until......... :P
had a great lunch with her,
with a funny movie,
and get a great CD!! :P

but yesterday moring...
such a ridiculous morning...
suddenly all of us get punishment,
just beacause of the missunderstand with a "Mnp" women...
then my lovely "grandma" suddenly said stay back with us
and scold like no buddy business.
haiz... what a day...

but lucky yesterday class ended earlier
and the time with "grandma" also not that long...
then went out with angel to get some fresh air
not so bad!!

yah, result was out,
congratulation to all of you
coz you really did a good job!
no matter how is it
it already pass
and good luck for your future!

too bad, i still miss you..

hey friend, i miss you....
i miss the time when we were together...
after the conversation with my friend,
and you choose to be silent
you know,
this make me feel so disappointed to you...
now i only understand that,
after i told you about my feeling,
then when i went back to ipoh
you bring her come to sisterhood gathering.
at first i thought that you and her just tuition together only
but now i only understand...
how stupid am i?
during cny,
i only told siew about ours incident
and siew told me that
is time for me to give up
coz you got your gf adi...
i asked siew back :
his gf so good mie? better than me?
then she silence...
just now i saw puan teng tagged you a photo,
top student in sri kledang
and your gf is inside
then i know that why you choose her but not me....
no matter what i do
how i change
and you
will not look at me.
but too bad,
coz i still miss you.

3 days 2 nights in hospital

i never think that i will be admit to hospital.
i'm lucky and glad that i have angel and jo,
i'm really glad!
both of them take turn came to take care me,
no matter they are morning shift or noon shift,
they still came.
here, i really need to say a very big THANK YOU to both of you!
beside that,
my dear hor ching, nordiana, winnie, yee chin, vicky, siean nie and anis,
and of cause all the mariam girl and GROUP 67,
THANK YOU!
thanks to you all that came to visit me,
and let me feel not that boring...

CI Lee, i love you.
i really love you.
i was so guilty that i take one week mc
and no going community service.
but you, never scold me,
just keep on asking me how am i feel now.
is it better? still got diarrhea? who take care you after this?
i feel so touch...
coz last time when i was sick,
i need to be strong and take care myself.
thank you.

in this 3 days,
i'm understand that,
no matter how i be he still will not look at me.
she helped me to talk to him
and he choose to not discuss and reply.
he choose to not concern or argue,
he choose to be quiet.
i'm waiting, waiting and waiting...
and finally i understand that,
no matter what i do
or how i change,
he still not belongs to me...
3 years, i should stop at here.

daddy, belated happy birthday oh~
i know that you are taking care of me!
daddy, i love you.

thinking of you~

from the day i choose this career, i know it's not easier...
but i really tired at here...
really hope that can have a good rest.

recently heard that my friend's family member was pass away.
i sad for it,
and make me reflect back a lot of things.
i was thinking back him, and start complaining...
why he leave me when i needed him the most?
why others can have somebody waiting them finish school but i need to go back alone?
why others can just shopping and buy what they want but i can't?
why the love that he given me was so little?
why i need to be so strong when i actually not?
why i need to be so independent until not depends on others?
i know it has no answer for it...

sad when she said that he told her we are not missing him.
but actually i can wet my whole pillow when i thinking of you.
7 years...
passed it with lonely,
and no body actually understand me like you...
missing you like mad,
especially when i need your support,
but what it return for me just nothing...

but i still believe that
you are always be with me, always...