Saturday, February 26, 2011

HOME!
although i am alone at home,
but it will better then stay at that stupid place.
much more better when the moment i reach my house,
feel like crying...
i don't know that how many of them will trust what both of them said,
i don't know how many of my friends actually believe me...
i don't know, really have no ideal...
is heart sick, from the moment both of them said like that...
one is the person who stay with me,
one is the person who quite close to me...
yah,
i admit for what i did,
i admit,
is nothing actually,
why you want to make it so big trouble?
maybe is a big trouble to you,
i don't mind that you said it out,
and we discuses it, that's it...
but, what is the point that,
you are angry me,
but didn't tell anythiing,
ignore everyone in the room...
you never tell anything,
and you expect me to know everything....
i really don't know what is happening actially...
you said you keep it for 2 and a half year,
how about me?
i never tell anyone how you treat me in the room also,
how many times because of you,
i lie to VP, helping you when you back after 11?
you injured during sport day,
go to A&E with you, admit to the ward with you,
and yet,
what i get back?
and You,
i never know that yo will treat me like this...
you know what is the meaning of "back step" ?
i never know that you will said, i back step you...
heartsick when i heard this..
if i backsteping you,
what is meaning we be friend for this 2 years?
we stand under the rain together,
we practise wushu together,
we go through cheerleading together...
what is this?
thick face rite me?
talk to you like normal,
because you never said anything also,
of cause i need to treat you normal...
not talk to you then will said me so LC,
talk to you said i'm so thick face...
is enough for me...
is really enough....

Friday, February 25, 2011

乱塔塔的心情,我不懂自己在做着什么...
为什么会这样?
朋友问:干嘛酱苍白?生病了吗?
干嘛酱心不在焉?发生什么事了吗?
我不懂,我真的不懂?
开始怀疑自己,怀疑自己的能力...
两个星期内,要做5个assignment,
加research...
这会是我的困扰吗?
还是因为即将离去的你?
开始没有安全感,没有真实感,
以后的日子,我会是变得怎样?
以前的我很将强的?现在去了哪里?
发生事情时我会冷静的,为什么会变成这样?
我的自信呢?我的冷静呢?
为何现在的我,会思想不到?

Monday, February 7, 2011

从不知道,
除了老爸以外,
会有一个人让她泪如雨下...
就酱坐着看书,
视线却变得模糊不清。
也许她真的太依赖,
让自己变得无比的懦弱,
觉得好对不起自己
在她还是泪流时
他可以劝她继续读书
信息道歉
她心好了一点
赶快收拾收拾
想早点与他说电话
在她还会有泪的时候
他却对她说
他要外出一下
也许会很晚回

再一次地落泪
没有人会明白
陪伴她的
只有无助与心痛
要考试了
压力无比
他陪她过了无数的考试
难道还不明白
每次考试
她会突然间的发神经
因为她需要人陪吗?
找不到他
她会哭
找到他了
也会心痛的哭

心痛了
却还必须等...