before annual leave..

is waiting for home....
so long, don't have long holiday.
refresh back, my last long holiday was on CNY,
which was just discharge from hospital,
and i had fever during CNY also...
last last long holiday,
my grandpa pass away,
and i cannot enjoy also...
this time go back,
i do hope that i can enjoy it.
but too bad,
before go back,
tutor said something that make my guilty.
"enjoy your leave,
come back only suffer"
after leave,
will have OSCE, external lecture, procedure, exam...
i know will be very stress,
but i waited this leave for so long....
sometimes i really not understand,
things that happen there you don't know,
just said that we never put effort.
yah,
i'm tired to find,
really tired.
find out already then how?
no body want to supervise me,
what i can do for it?

sweet dream

so long never dream about you,
and this morning,
i'm glad that can see you so clearly in my dream.
you hug me,
with your soft voice worry about me.
i never let you hug before,
maybe yes,
but it not in my memory.
so,
in my sweet dream last night,
you hugged me,
that was so comfort.
you are worrying me,
and asked my why never take good care for myself;
every time make myself sufferer in gastric pain.
"should eat more, sleep more yah.
not enough money is it?
remember ask money from me if you are not enough ok?"
you know?
i was so happy that can see you in my dream,
until i feel like don't want to wake up...
Papa,
i miss you.
i do miss you so much.
CI said,
when somebody that you love leave you,
you shouldn't be so sad and depress for more that 6 month.
if not,
you are under depression.
but 7 years already,
every time when i thinking back you,
my tears just cannot be control.
is it normal?
have no ideal....